Too often I am told that I’m “scared of everything.” Truth be told though, I am definitely a nervous wreck 90% of the time. Tonight at the grocery store I was too nervous to get bananas alone without my husband. He was heading to check out when we realized we had forgotten the bananas that were across the store. He said, “Hey can you grab some bananas real fast and meet me at check out?” Instantly I became nervous and was thinking to myself, “do you want me to be kidnapped?!” But instead I just said, “We should just go together so we get the right ones.” Like how can you go wrong grabbing bananas? My poor sweet husband. I am amazed he hasn’t gone bananas himself yet by putting up with my weird shenanigans. Especially when it comes to being fearful of doing most normal tasks alone.
I hate being alone. I get anxious just thinking about it. Being home alone, shopping alone, eating alone, etc. When I think about how silly it is that I can’t go places alone, I also feel silly spiritually. God is E V E R Y W H E R E. And I have nothing to fear because of Him.
So how come getting bananas alone makes me feel entirely uncomfortable? I think it’s because we live in a very dark and broken world. There is so much hatred happening around us. So many people being taken advantage of. People missing or being put into bad situations. There’s darkness behind every corner. The Devil is out to get us and he won’t stop until he wins.
But… if I put my faith against my fear, the fear loses and the Devil doesn’t stand a chance.
Faith and fear cannot live in the same place.
Someone once told me that my anxiousness to be alone makes me wise. Wise enough to know that there are bad things happening all around us, but also wise in knowing the Lord is always with me.
Either way, wise or not, I still feel like I am failing as a Christian when I am fearful of living life. My God died so that I could live.
Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never allow the righteous to be shaken. Psalms 55:22
He himself will rescue you from the bird trap, from the destructive plague. He will cover you with his feathers; you will take refuge under his wings. His faithfulness will be a protective shield. You will not fear the terror of the night, the arrow that flies day by day, the plague that stalks in darkness, or the pestilence that ravages at noon. Though a thousand fall at your side and ten thousand at your right hand, the pestilence will not reach you. Psalms 91:3-7
For he will give his angels orders concerning you, to protect you in all your ways. Psalms 91:11
So how can I continue being such a scaredy-cat? It’s hard being fearless. My biggest inspiration is Sadie Robertson when it comes to overcoming my fear. I am pretty sure I would pass out if I ever get to meet her. She is so brave + hearing her story of why she lives fearless is inspiring. But I still fall short when it comes to being fearless. It’s definitely something I too am trying to overcome. But I’ve found that succumbing myself in His word helps. Finding verses that bring power to my step and help me fight through the anxiety.
Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are mine. I will be with you when you pass through the waters, and when you pass through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. You will not be scorched when you walk through the fire, and the flame will not burn you. Do not fear for I am your God. Isaiah 43: 1-3
Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Don’t let your heart be troubled or fearful. John 14:27
So one day at a time or I guess one banana at a time while grocery shopping, I’ll overcome my fear and let my faith stand in. No matter how uncomfortable the situation or how anxious I feel, the Lord is my shelter and I will not be afraid anymore.
I hope this helps some of you fellow “would rather not be alone” people. We are all in this together and I hope these verses bring some faith that helps push out your fear. ❤️